I stand amazed.

I finally made it to John! It's a wonderful accomplishment. It was my goal to read the gospels in order and I am almost done! I've read them all individually, but I've never read them back to back. I am enjoying it because they are all so similar, but each uniquely different. This morning I was reading from John 4. It's the story of the samaritan woman at the well. I know that story so I breezed right through it. My eyes began to open starting in verse 27 and I know the Lord had a special plan for me to read this today! It says:

Just then his disciples returned and were surprised to find him talking with a woman. But no one asked, “What do you want?” or “Why are you talking with her?”

Then, leaving her water jar, the woman went back to the town and said to the people, “Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could this be the Messiah?” They came out of the town and made their way toward him.

Meanwhile his disciples urged him, “Rabbi, eat something. But he said to them, “I have food to eat that you know nothing about.Then his disciples said to each other, “Could someone have brought him food?”

“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work. Don’t you have a saying, ‘It’s still four months until harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. Even now the one who reaps draws a wage and harvests a crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. Thus the saying ‘One sows and another reaps’ is true. I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Others have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor.”

I emphasized the lines that really hit me. These past few weeks I've been drowning in my own trouble. What I mean is that I have been making up conflict to have conflict, to not be satisfied and just all together being selfish. It's a very real temptation and struggle. Who doesn't want to provide for themselves and thinks they know just what they need. Well I know nothing compared to what God knows for me! This morning as I read this I just kept thinking about how selfish I am. Although I would love to be married, have a family and a home of my own, just things women my age struggle with, I am being fed by something beyond myself. God is filling me up spiritually to do his work! Philippians 2:21 says this: " For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." That's a pretty tough verse for me to swallow, however, I am blessed every day with reminders that he has a plan, he will provide all of my needs and he is at work all around me- why wouldn't I want to join in on that?!

I love my new bible study workbook called Experiencing God and am so excited about how God is constantly working around me. The more I see him doing, the more I am amazed! Where is he at work in your life?